i miss the old.

bye blogger

alright, bye blogger.com .. i'm getting into the livejournal loop now..
so i'll be posting at bongjklop.livejournal.com from now on.. yup!

i finally gave in! blogger's very old school... but it'll still be here for keeps!

trella has new songs to play,
and i have new shoes to walk in,
so i needed a new lj to post in...

kay.. bye!

hopeful?

i like how whatever happens,
i still have my music, and four awesome brothers to share that with.
i like how even though i may have possibly set myself up for the greatest fall ever,
i have more than just myself to rely on.
i like how i know that i'm not alone.
i like how ive learnt to fully let go of the things i cannot control.
i like how ive learnt to smile at the most fucked up things.
even if it's painful.
cause you need the pain for there to be happiness.
like how you need the silence for there to be sound.

when i say that you're my gravity,
i hope you fully grasp that.
i hope you know how scary it is,
how vulnerable i am,
but also how incredibly sure of myself i am this time.
i just hope this would eventually amount to something.
cause hope is just about all i have for now.

"we dont want to hope so much, but we hope FULLY!"
-Silhouette
(which is retarded but kinda true, right?)

the intangible :)

yay

thank you everyone,
my weekend was amazing!
saturday was spent with awesome people
trella has never been this close before,
which is really, awesome,
something no one can take away from us
cause it makes everything so much more meaningful!
and wonderful!

i've learnt so much from being in this band
i love you guys alot.

anyway thank you everyone who has made my weekend wonderful!
you know who you are!!!

now, sunday's a day to kick back and go to church and slack with my parents in the afternoon, and then go for work in the evening. so yup boring sunday but i think i need that! its nice to settle down and slack. haha, okay byebye im damn tired sia.


have a little faith in me! :)

deathcab ticket

anyone wanna buy my deathcab ticket? serious.
drop a comment if you do...
thanks...

patience and faith

I have nothing much to say except that I am about to walk through a tunnel of which I'm not sure even has a light at the end. not because I have to. because I want to. And I'm very sure of that. I will have patience, and I will have faith!

Though the clarity's vague, I will figure this out.

and by the way, Heart;Selfish fucking bites and stings,
and i fucking love it alot.
you will get to hear it when we get to play it,
and that's at weekend trip so,
that's about all I'm looking forward to right now.

have a little faith in me!

the physical and the limitless

Imagination,
it's limitless.

We're all stuck in this secular, materialistic world,
and we still love it.
but only on the surface.

We always seem to want more, don't we?
We all love just getting away,
exploring the unknown,
trying to unlock new channels of the limitless,
trying to unlock new channels of the imagination!

We're always fascinated by it. Look at the things we come up with, to get us 'out there,' the alcohol, the drugs,
but they're not always bad.

Our sad, worldly little bodies cannot take such abuse.
We hurl it out, but then again, it's not really 'we' who does the puking.
Our bodies are trying to tell us, "no, enough, i do not like this, i will die if i get anymore!"
But our minds are telling us just the opposite,
"so what happens next? why don't you just find out! go on!"
Because we are on this high, we forget the physical world and our limitations, we thrive on our imagination, and that's what keeps fascinating us. The limitless.

It doesn't always have to be so negative, though.
As in with the drugs and the alcohol.
Take a look at music.

Our physical bodies are limited by its ability,
but what about our minds?
What forces us to train our bodies to perform such tasks that not only fascinate ourselves as individuals, but others as well?
Where did we get those ideas, why do we have that motivation to take some random fragment of imagination you have in your head, and put it to tune?

And those tunes,
they are virtually limitless!
I find it absolutely amazing,
how a guitar can have 6 strings, and 22 frets,
and those are your limitations.
But the tunage you can come up with,
those random fragments of your imagination,
which you painstakingly express, using notes or a combination of hits, on the physical, supposedly limited fretboard of the guitar, or cymbals on the drums, or keys on the piano, whatever it is,
amazingly,
it's still limitless!

This is why I'm so in love with music.
It's like this channel, where the contents of your imagination can just flow, and you can transfer it somehow, and it affects people in one way or another. It's amazing.

And then you have these words,
these lyrics,
which turn these contents, originally just random fragments of your own imagination, your own zone of limitless imagination, into something which you can communicate to someone else, something you can share.
It can ruin that fragment though,
Or it can reinforce it.

To bring to the physical world as we know it, the boundless limits of the human ability to imagine.

I think that's what music is to me.

wahlau sian!

okay, so you did give me an answer,
too bad it wasnt in my favour.
haha.
life is such la.
wahlau sian.
but such is life la.

in due time la.
all in due time.

wahlau sian.

hahaha

i cannot get carried away feeling sorry for myself!

i shall not.

fuck sia im getting damn emo and personal on my blog. getting damn singlish also. maciam i talking to you. even though 'you' could be virtually anyone. what if some angmoh dude read my blog. he'll prolly go, what the fuck? gone were the times where i bitched about
1. the way our country is run,
2.school,
3.lack of freedom
and of course,
4.God.

(and the absence of the discussion of these things on my blog has really taken a toll on my usage of the english language here! that's not very nice. at all.)

Oh well.

i think ive drawn too many conclusions for them all. as in the stuff i usually talk about on my blog. or rather, used to.

1. our country is simply run the way it is, more power to those who dont give a shit and just carry on doing what they want and actually succeed in it!

2. school is no more. for me la. for now. lol. our education system may be fucked up depending on how you look at things. but you have to admit, it's more or less fair. if you hate it, well, again i say to you, more power to those who dont give a shit and just carry on doing what they want, and still succeed in it!!!!!!

3. lack of freedom. fuck bitching about freedom la. you create your own freedom.

4. God is whoever you want him to be. just have faith.



okay.
today's quite conclusive,

too bad some conclusions are just wahlau sian.
but that's life la.

hahaha


okbye

wahlau sian.

be the stars that dot your own night sky.

Stop looking elsewhere, it won't get you anywhere.
Look inside you, look within,
and ask yourself what YOU want.
Cause ultimately, that's all that matters.
It will only work if you want it bad enough.
So do you want it?

Think about that,
And when you're done,
Please don't leave me hanging here!
I could do this, but not for long.
I could be happy, just waiting,
Even though I really dont know what I'm waiting for.
But I will eventually have to stop,


Just tell me when.

Life is full of brutal things you have to just grit your teeth, accept it and go 'SUCH IS LIFE.'
This is one of them.

Today was a good day but, there's always the 'but' and this was it, basically.

Sigh.
With a capital S.

I need to piah at tomorrow's show.

oh shit, it's tomorrow already!
But that's normal.
I'm gonna try to sleep early. goodnight internet.