my brain is hanging upside down
Well im pretty excited about the upcoming confirmation camp. Starts on monday and ends on.. wait i have to check my calendar.. wait im too lazy to get it. damn.
I hope the camp will be as good as the one I had last year... only I bet it'll be a few hundered times more meaningful. To all of us, I think. We've grown up a bit, understand God a bit better. But I still dont know why the hell were all here. Ive got lots of questions to ask God.
Anyway we've been through alot this year, my church friends and I, and I hope this camp will not only strengthen my relationship with God but also with my friends. It's weird to think a few months ago I hated them, now Im gonna go through one of the most meaningful church camps in my life with them. Beats me how we lived off this love-hate relationship for so long.. every year there was something amiss, some problem or whatever. I hope this camp will somehow change this... by maybe changing us...
Anyway I went to the third place gig on the 25th.. Caracal was so good, I love that band. It was also 4th Avenue's last gig. They were pretty awesome too. Got me stoked. (heh there u go, priss) I thought the screamer for the first band was rather good too, though I dont really dig those kinda songs where all they do is scream and scream the whole song... its insane.
Its like they give an intro to the song, tell us that its about something then suddenly its just noise and screaming. Totally insane. I dont get it. Maybe Im just too fucken dumb, huh, sir?
Sigh I wish my band was more... together. I wish we were all best friends. Now were just like, band mates. Just buddies. Who get together a few times a week. Thats all. Nothing much to this. I wish Gary was like, more like us......... Brendan, Irwin and I have confirmation on the 4th of dec, and Priss's party gig is on the 9th, leaving us 5 days. Im scared. We're gonna make complete asses of ourselves on stage again. again. dont we ever learn? why cant my band actually just look like a band? argh. K i shall not cry about my band this way. Its so unprofessional. But then again we all are. as in my band. not yours. or any others.
So much stuff. my brain is hanging upside down.
I want a new guitar. Truth be told, Quinsy fucken sucks.
Heh. why is it I go into blogger.com with absolutely nothing in mind then everything just comes out like this. And when I do want to write some stuff, my mind goes blank.
Well at least I can say im far better than I was before. Cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out way back then.
But then i learned so yay.
So ive given up the thought of you and me
and dreams of how cool it'll be
Maybe you dont like music thats punk
Maybe you hated that I got drunk
So I guess I'll say I done
While I dreamt it was rather fun
But fuck it.
Whatever it is ill just move on
Im tired of waiting, all forlorn.
Cant lie to myself anymore,
This was really such a bore
Just a dream, a fantasy
the mere thought of you and me.
alright thats all bye, yay. seeyou peeps.
-Bongatron.