bury face in hands today

Hello! i cant believe i finally had the money to buy a new mp3 player. i've been thinking about martin's question. what would life be without underwear? ghee, la da ma. it would be absofuckinglutely disgusting. regoddamndiculous.
hey, ladies and gentlemen, you know what?
we're heading into the middle of 2006. its so fast! facking four months have just passed. theres so much going on now, and on top of that, the mid year exams are here. are you studying? or have you been studying? no? are you trying to but still think its not gonna work? yay, join the club. i suck at studying cause ive never really studied before in my entire life. exams spoil peoples lives. why do we test so much? our country is like one of the only countries that fully exploits its only resource - human beings. they cram so much information into us and force feed everything so we can get 'good jobs' that contribute to the economy so the country can prosper. but then again, what is the economy FOR? its PEOPLE! and if the people are the ones who are fueling the economy, who gets to enjoy the benefits? fuck!
im lazy. i want to be a househusband when i grow up. that would certainly be a very fine thing to have as an occupation.

Trella

hello, world. SLOF is now known as Trella!
I love that name. Its so different from what you have with so many other bands these days, its like getting boring. But on the other hand, theres so much talent in Singapore. There are so many bands now, I think new bands and not so famous bands/new ametuer bands like my bands should be given more chances to perform on a more public scale. Not just at places like Substation and Third Place... I wish the local scene was more wide. There are like very few genres out there now, mostly emocore, post hardcore, emo, punk rock and some indie bands. Of course there are other genres of bands around, but I wish there were lots more of them.

Why does life have to be so busy. Ive gotten myself into quite a number of things this year. Theres like no time to do what i love to do. Just sit down in my room and space out. Like, not do anything, just sit there, relax, and then do whatever your mind tells you to do. Like, if i feel like reading, ill just read, if i want to play the guitar, ill just play, if i want to just put on some music and space out some more, ill do just that. Or ill just sit there, stone, and think. Think about what im doing with my life right now, is it right? And like where im going and like, stuff like that. I think thats extremely important to continue with life. So im like starting to feel weird ever since the absence of my 'spacing out' routine.
A lot of people just think that is simply wasting time, but then again, i dont believe in the term 'wasting time'. Time is never wasted, its just spent. However way you spend it. It's never really wasted. What you do in that so called 'wasted' time, you'll remember, and if its part of your memory, no matter if its a good or bad memory, it will be in your memory, and whats in your memory will shape you and affect the way you do things in the future.
So time is never wasted, and life is a learning journey for when you go to heaven. And i guess when you die, you go to a place that provides your reason for living and the reson for your entire life.

For me, ill just stop wondering what life is for, and just have a thing called faith. at lease i'll try my very best to. i question too much, i think. people say i think too much, but isnt that a good thing?

Someone helped me realise that i actually have a very intelligent mind, just that its not translated in my schoolwork. Im still lazy, but im trying very hard to counter that.
Ive got a new motivation to study, then. see. God gave me a brain. an intelligent one. So if i dont maximise its potential, then im not using my talent properly. And God gave me this talent, so i have to use it fully, and indirectly bring him glory.

easter is tomorrow.

All the easter chocolates are small. They make small animal easter chocolates. Like rabbits and bunnies. Why cant they make elephant easter chocolates!

But screw the chocolates, easter's not all about chocolates. Easter is the reason for my entire religion. Its ten times more important than christmas, cause Christ really ROSE FROM THE DEAD. I never understood the significance of this till recently. Wowee.

Toobleaspud, people. Pick Jesus.

OMPOH!

Hello, world. I think screamo bands are boring. I suck at the guitar. OOH. I play guitar but I dont write suicide notes. Im not emo, then. I lost my gameboy for four whole years now. I want a PSP but I've got no money. Im going to give up cereal for good friday. Im going to listen to caracal now. yay. I must love the sinner, hate the sin. I hate masturbation but I love all the guys out there who masturbate. Look for Jesus lah. Then you will stop masturbating. I think im playing lan too much now. I suck anyway. My money's all going away. Math is getting easy. Actually everything is easy, its just that I never pay enough attention. O levels is not a test of ability, its a test of determination. Lazy people like me will never make it. So I musnt be lazy. Others strive to kick ass at o levels, i strive to kick my own ass and show myself and im worth more. OMPOH!